So Interesting

The Lord works in ways that are so interesting.

Have you ever thought about it? I mean, have you ever really sat down and thought about it? I've just seen today for myself how interesting the Lord's hand is.

You know, when the Lord wants you back, He's gonna get you back and you won't really get to say much about it, except by then you'll probably be so tired and miserable that you just want to leave this Earth anyway and won't really be in the mood for arguing.

And sometimes, He'll do it in ways that you just know that this is the Lord's hand working. To watch someone be diagnosed and then 6 weeks later are gone, you know that the Lord wanted His servant back to do His work on the other side. And remember when those trees randomly fell over and killed two people in South Fork up Provo Canyon? No explaination at all? Sometimes the Lord just needs His people back.

Don't you ever get jealous when you see your loved ones called back sooner than you? Lucky them they don't have to face this world. Lucky them they get to start the missionary work on the other side already.

Oh well. I am happy for him, and sad for us. I am so grateful I got to meet him and know him. What a wonderful man.

We miss and love you already, Vaughn Squires. Til we meet again!

Dear Hailey,

I'm sorry I lost all your pictures.

I'm sorry I wasn't smart enough to back up each picture that I took as soon as I took it.

I thought about it every time I looked through pictures. I knew this had happened to people before. I knew I needed to back up all my pictures, but I just kept telling myself that I will do it later. When I have more time, I will do it later.

And now they are lost forever. NICU. Videos of hiccups. Carseat tests. Tiny little baby with air tubes in her nose. Growing up. Getting slowly bigger. Pictures that daddy wouldn't even have. Pictures that only mommy would take while we spent time together.

Videos. Happy Hailey. Hair-do's. Getting cuter. Silly things like crawling into your carseat and ontop of the box of wipes.

It's all gone, and I am so sorry.

Now just leave mommy alone for a little bit while she goes and cries.

Hi Friends.

These last couple weeks have been so crazy. Never before since I've been married, probably, have I had this many things going on every single night of the week. And I'm not even in school!

I'm trying not to feel stressed. I'm trying to be grateful I have my calling and to see the blessings it has already brought into my life. I am trying to be grateful that I am a mom and that I shouldn't complain that when I have so many errands to run and things to do at home, the baby is just another thing to pack up or keep away from my stuff.

My to-do list keeps getting longer and longer. And Hailey is sleeping and I know that this is the only chance for me to even think about getting anything done.

Not to mention I keep avoiding/putting off something that I know I probably ought to be, and even can be, working on? I told him I'd do a little bit for now but since I am so busy, I just have to put it off til January. I really feel bad because I know it helps him out, but I'm sorry. I just can't sit down and work on this right now when I have soooo much to do. I know everybody has "soooo much to do", but please, I would really appreciate a break right now until I'm ready to really tackle it.

But you guys. I am so happy. I am incredibly happy. This year, I actually feel it. I can feel the spirit of the season and it brings back happy memories of being young and going around Barnes and Noble and Burlington Coat Factory Christmas shopping. I can't wait! to go Christmas shopping for Hailey. I know she won't really appreciate the gifts we give her yet, but I still can't wait to say that I bought her stuff for Christmas and to be like those other moms who say, "It's Thanksgiving and I already have my Christmas shopping done." Oh, I do hope so!

And even though I am stressed out as heck about Young Women in Excellence tonight, a program which I only got planned just a week ago, and which I did not have time to put anything fancy together and I really hope will be ok since we're not really doing any musical numbers or anything....I just pray that we will be able to get the point across, that Personal Progress is important and that that is how these Young Women can go to the temple and return to their Heavenly Father.

So I know I need to get off the computer. That's a bad distraction. I'll leave you with this for today, and maybe eventually I'll update you with September/October pictures.

And a little prayer would be nice. And also pray for all the people affected by Sandy, pray for my brother in Afghanistan, and pray for our country that we may stay UNITED and strong and trust in God to help us through these hard and trying times.

Happy Tuesday!

8 Months Old

So remember how forever ago I had written about how someday soon Hailey will be sitting? We have finally hit that someday soon! Ok, she's not entirely sitting yet, but she's close enough that I can pretty much just say she is sitting! I remember thinking upon Halloween as soon as Hailey was born and that she would be 8 months old by then (wow!) and would be sitting and be so big! Well, we're getting there! Happy Eight Months, Hailey, and congratulations on accomplishing your first of the major holidays to come this season!

Weight: We had to take her in for a rash about 3 weeks ago, I'd say. The verdict...13 pounds. Come on, Hailey! Let's get this show on the road! We've only got 4 months left until you're a year old and we want to at least get past 15!

Diapers: So that means that her diapers are still struggling. Well, not to mention she has the TINIEST butt ever! I kid you not. I dare you to find a smaller butt. We're in transition between 1 and 2 right now, depending on the brand, really. Luvs 2 fit better than Parent's Choice 2, and I never buy Pampers or Huggies because they are too expensive. But she can still just as easily keep wearing her 1's in any brand except Luvs (they just run small, I've realized). I think I started buying 2's just hoping that she will some day get bigger. I'm sick of buying a small pack of 1's again thinking that soon she'll be in 2's. I wasted a lot of money on small packs when I could have just been buying big boxes, but then again, they hardly sell big boxes of 1's for the cheaper brands (except I realized, a little late, online), and each time I thought of buying a big box of 1's, I thought that maybe, just maybe, she'll grow out of them before we'd be able to finish that box. Am I rambling? Yes. But there you go. That is my dilemma with diapers.

I'd also like to mention, though, that 1-50pack cheap diapers + 1-50pack cheap diapers = 100 and less expensive still than buying Pampers or Huggies for only 94 diapers. The end.

Sitting: I've been hoping and praying and praying and hoping that she would be sitting all on her own by this time! And I don't mean hanging out on her hips. I mean full on sitting on her bum without any help of her arms. She's getting there, she really is! She can do it with a little help from us. We just have to show her what to do and hopefully she'll pick up quickly. And she really has been picking up quickly. 

Standing: She can hold herself up if we gently support her or let her hold onto the couch or the back of the church pew. She also has started pulling herself up onto her knees. She's been getting into her toy box more because she can actually reach up and look into it. Also, she loooooves playing with her carseat because now she can climb up into it and play with the buckles.

Talking: She sure can jabber! I've definitely heard "mama" and "dada" in there. The "mama" more so only because she just absolutely loves to cry as soon as she sees me and immediately starts making her way toward me and says "Ma" or "mama" while doing so. She also loves to sing and just makes all sorts of noises.

Eating: She's well into eating solids. I can definitely say that she much prefers to chew things than the thin, soupy, baby food that comes pureed in a jar. Lately, I've been feeding her thick cereal to help her eat her baby food better, but then that's been really constipating her. I'm slowly trying to get her to eat her baby food plain now. But yes, she'd much rather have a chunk in her mouth that she can just mash up and down. She can pick up big pieces, like cereal or yogurt drops, and she can put them in her mouth. She loves to feed herself. I tried to let her eat pear pieces, but they were too slippery for her to hold. Alas, her fiber will still come from the soupy spoon, but we're working on it!

We're also still on formula, of course. I've been getting Parent's Choice Advantage (which is the same as Similac Advance Shield) but the other day I decided to get the Premium/Enfamil one. She takes them either way, but I did notice that the formula itself is less sticky. Other than that, I think I still prefer the Advantage. And she'll take actual Similac brand, but it gives her a rash around her mouth.

Clothing Size: We are just barely getting into 6-9, but once again, only depending on the brand. Her jammies, actually, are about into the 9 months, but that is because she is so long! She is by no means fat enough to fill them out, but length-wise, it's about all we can do, really. Although, I am kind of hoping she doesn't grow out too soon because the pants that I have for her right now are all so cute!

Teeth: She has two!! Two little-bitty bottom ones! And boy has she been cranky. Scott's mom says her top gums have been swollen. Oh boy. We cannot put this little girl down without the world ending. But I'm not going to lie when I say I sure do love the cuddles!

I love my little girl!